Hiiiiiii
to all of my dear ones, my friends,  This
is your own Rehaan Qureshi, I prefer to called by this name only, because,  all of u knows that this precious name is
given to me by 'NOOR' my one and only love, and she will remains the same for
me, forever, till the eternity..……

All of you are aware of my feelings
towards her,  I know all of you was
missing me a lot, heartiest regrets for that, I really apologize for this, but this time is very tough and critical for me because now a days, my beloved left me, by giving me the number of reasons( all of that are containing her egoism
or innocence whatever is this, I know this fact is also that, she is not enough capable of taking the right decisions of life, at all, because she is totally unaware of shrewdness / cunningness of this world, she is very innocent and
emotional, but think herself as a very wise girl and presume her a very practical and materialistic girl).  Ok, lets go ahead, It all happens due to my own relatives, my own sister, some so called “Dharma ke thekedar’s” and some of my own truth - o – lies( I made some lies to her also, and heartly regrets and apologise for the same to her), Here I’m admitting the fact that for me, she is the most important one, even more important then my own identity or my own life.

My dear friends for the sake of my beloved, I made my decision to convert as a MOMEEN after having a thorough analyzation of my own persona and social, family, business
life circle and ready to accept the ISLAAM by the core of my heart irrespective of this fact that being a very upper cast Hindu and following the Hindu rituals since my childhood to till today of 33 years of age of mine, Even I completed
and follow the both two Roza of the Shab – e – Barat(Shab – E – Kadar), I was’nt slept for whole night and prying to 
Allah Paak only, because as per the religious things are concerned I am not aware of Dua’as and was want to perform and pay my ibadat to Allah Miyan, I  did completed the total 6 Roza’s of This year 2008 …. 1^st Two starting Roza’s, Two Roza of 15 Oct.2008 & 16 Oct.2008 and the Last two Roza also, I committedly and completely perform
all the rules and regulations of Ramadan as per the Islam, I waked up in the morning at 2.55AM, take the bath, having Sehri, following the whole day fasting as per the rules and open the Roza as per her instructions provided by her over
phone of that particular moments at evening and had some Iftaari, I humbly make requests to all of my muslim friends to help me in my “MAZHABI TAALIM” but due to their own hectic working schedules, most of the time they was not available for me and I can understand their problems, I went to Hazi Sahab( Bade Maulana Sahab of Humdard) and he told me it can be happened and the “SAHADA” can be
performed but after this Ramadan, because at that time he was always paying his ibadat to Allah Paak, I did all the things as a muslim by my heart, I did the Zakat, Hadiya at Kabristaan, Madarsa, I become a part of  sehri like other momins.

I Stood against all the social and family values, but never ever let her face the bitterness of the same, firmly facing the circumstances of that particular moment I intake the Chemical(acid) and was just on the verse of my death,
admitted in PSRI Hospital – Saket at least for five days, within that three days in ICU and even by today I am on Drug based medical treatment at-least for Six months as that chemical(Acid) creates some major wounds on Liver, Both Kidneys, Abdominal part injuries etc., but she even damn care about it , even after having the information of the same, She was having the impression that I was making her fool and misguiding her for taking her or her family members sympathy, Please told my why should I need that?, I know she loves me by the core of her heart, She even loves me more than her own life, but she is facing the some social issues and responsibilities towads her Sisters(Married ones or Unmarried one, Parents, Relatives, their own Muslim community persons),  But she never ever believed on my acts and always having a doubt in her mind, even after see it by her own that when ever I was with her I treated her life an angel and even “maine kabhi uske pairon
men mitti tak nahin lagne di, use apni hatheli par nahin,  sar- mathe par nahin, use maine apni ankhon men putliyon ki tarah sambhal or sahej kar rakha aur aaj bhi use vohi jagah deta use main apni zindagi men aaj bhi deta hoon”,  All of you are part of my life that is why I am sharing my feeling with you,  please do tell me If I was wrong, for me it is near about impossible to take a decision on this point of life, one thing I want to admit “ IS DUNIYA MAIN SIRF APNI NOOR KI VAJAH SE SHARMINDA HONA PADA, SAB GHAR WALE MUJH SE YEHI SAWAAL KARTE HAIN, KI ISI LADKI KE PEECHE TU HUM SABKO KO CHHOD RAHA THA, AUR VO TUJHE HI PEETH DIKHA KAR CHHALI GAYI”

All is
true but still I Love her, despite of her wrong decisions taken by her in her life, at this time of prior to me, I accept her without any hesitation or any question on that, How can I betray her?, I love her with all my feelings she is still my own, I love her soul, way of talking, her each and every gesture, her smile, her naughtiness, her innocence, her each and every act, not her physical body, She is not this much of beautiful, but for me she is having the most
beautiful and charming persona of this universe, “ALLAH PAAK SE EK HI DUA KARTA HUN KI VO APNE MERI INNOCENT NOOR APNE IS REHAAN KI PAAK MOHABBAT KO PEHCHAN LE AUR MERE PAAS LAUT AYE, ALLAH PAAK MUJHE MERI NOOR KO LOTA DEN, CHHAHE USKE LIYE MUJHE YE JAHAN HI KYON NA CHHODNA PADE”

Please pray for me to your God, and respond me, I really need all the blessings one can give me.

Your  -  REHAAN QURESHI

LOVE EMOTIONS?

Well its all yours Raaj(SOMEONES
is LOVES TO CALL ME, HER REHAAN) is here once again and even now I can
not let you know my beloveds name and that is only for her sake of
identity, Love in life is really matters and I’m talking about the LOVE
not the infatuation and trying to write my feelings about my LOVE, yeah
I admit that its near about impossible to express the deep impact of
the love relation and now a days its impossible to understand my
feeling even by me, I accept that I’m in deep love but unfortunately
she belongs to other religion and it became a nightmare to me as now
she is refusing to be mine only to please the so called society peoples, parents and for the sake of her respect which I think does not matter to these so called people because if they really love her they will definitely respect feelings and ask her to go with her desired one, and that is after this much of love and even she cant not even think other than me and take every breath with my essence, but the poor us, we are insisting ourselves to be strong to hide our emotions with each other, she stopped replying my SMS and on calling her giving such type of answers to make me irritate so that I’ll stop to calling her up and start to forget our matter of love relation, but I know she loves me more then that I love her, because she loves my soul not my body, she loves my nature not my money, with the deep emotions of her soul even It reaches to my mind in every second of her thought. I’ll pray to all of you my friends pls “MERE OR MERE PYAR KE LIYE DUA KEEJIYEE, SO THAT WE CAN MEET AND CAN BECOMENOORRAAJ” .  Its true I love her even love her more than my own life.

Love is What?
Its near going two months or so less than that,
I was never feels so, that may be called a love relation, but now a days I can
feel it , it really does’nt matters that she(NOOR) belongs to other religion,
or how she is looking or what is her past,  its (The Love) so strong that I even can go
beyond my limits for it, as it comes as the boundations / restriction in form
of religion, socio-economic views, relations etc..  What I realise in this
regard is that it is something related with your pure emotions and intensity of
love and the compatibility between the two souls, and the rest of part which
some persons are going to ask that does not matters in this. But for all this
one should stand all the times with the partner rather than running by the fear
of facing the scenarios, who loves someone only can feel and can give the
answer for the same, If someone comes in life as husband or wife, Its the time
who tells the others how they comes from the difficult time with the help of
each others emotions and rest of world is praising them rather then laughing or
cutting them with the social circuls, every one knows that the only thing is
important in this matter is how to make love successful, I pray to my Great almighty
whether its bhagwan, khuda or whatsoever that my NOOR will understand it and
give me full faith, love care and help me to resolve the matter and be stand
with me always, I can and will assure her that I make her self always happy and
be stand with her in any circumstances whether the good or the bad, I’ll be the
person to give her most respect, love affection and care. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeees
allow me be yours.

Relations does matters only for all the human beings in this entire univers created by the god, I prefers to say the almighty rather than named it with Bhagwan, khuda, Jesus, Wahe Guru.  What I feel that all the names are created by us for the beneficery side of ourselfs and in todays time this thing creats major problems, whether in countries, religions, relations, love matters or as well as human values inside the peoples. I pray to my allmighty that in next birth(if it exists), pls give me the desired love, faith, without any ristriction from the religion so that even I CAN LIVE LIKE A HUMAN BEING WITH HIS NOOR, THE LOVE BLESSINGS PROVIDED BY THE ALLMIGHTY.